I usually keep the opinion, that one shouldn't think about changing the past and just learn his/her lessons for the future. However, since my grandmother's very sudden death about 7 months ago, I have a reoccuring dream: I am with her and I know that she's going to die very soon - and I all I think is: "It's OK that she'll die soon, I just want to hold on to these last moments, I want to hug her just once more and to tell her how much I love her, etc." I truly did a lot of that in real life - but it's still doesn't feel enough - I wish I could go back in time and just be with her those last several days all over again - and at the same time to know that she's about to die. Tags: do-over, redo, start over, writer's block
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